I’m embarrassed to say. The old, “let me clarify” thing when someone disagrees with me. This time someone did that with me, “let me clarify” when I disagreed with him and I responded with something like “Oh, I understood completely and I stand by what I said.” I’m being really snarky today. Really. Snarky.

I suppose the combination of waiting for results, steroids, and just going through this from week-to-week is making me somewhat . . . OK, very, cranky. Add to all of those that I’m going to have to ask for peoples’ sick leave donations and it all just makes me either want to cry or punch someone; I don’t know which one. Or preferably both at the same time.

At some point, I’ll probably have to go on disability for awhile, which makes me want to cry again. I don’t know how much of my salary I’ll get with that. It’s hard when you’re the major breadwinner and working or not working isn’t a choice. I have to work. No work, no health insurance for any of us. Not working isn’t an option. It’s never been a problem like this before, though.

People say things to me like “it’s nice that you can continue to work” and how great it is to stay busy and “it’s probably helpful to keep yourself busy,” and I think, “I’m not so sure.” There are plenty of days when I’d rather be resting at home, but maybe it is good for me to come out where other people are. I just sometimes wish it was a different environment, and that’s all I’ll say about that.

Ah well. Work is almost over for today, thankfully. I have my support group tonight; maybe that will help.

Until then . . .

SNARK!

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