Posted by: justenjoyhim | January 16, 2007

I’m An Enigma

Apparently, I’m an enigma where I live, at least to some people. Evidenced by some of the things that people have said to me and/or some of the reactions I’ve received by things that I’ve done, said, or just by how I present myself, I’ve gathered a small but interesting collection of quotes. I’m only including a handful here. I don’t necessarily think I’m a puzzle, a conundrum, a mystery, a riddle, or a perplexity. I am, however, a lover of language and synonymns. :D

So what, or rather who, am I? How do I define myself? Are these qualities so hard to join, so hard to put side by side?

I don’t know if it’s just where I live, or if it’s prevalent in other places too. It didn’t seem to be as much of an issue where I grew up. And people, that’s only a 45-minute drive from here! It’s not like I moved to a really rural area. It’s just an odd area, this town of mine. Many, or at least some people here just seem uncomfortable if they can’t put you in a nice and neatly labelled box. If I’m a liberal, then I must be a godless heathen, right? Well, no, sorry. And if I’m a married straight woman, then I must be uncomfortable around gays and jokes about gays are OK, right? Well, no, that’s not OK either.

So I confuse people.

Just in the past few weeks to a month, I’ve had the following comments directed towards me. The first one I’ve already discussed:

* It’s awkward for a white woman to be so interested in diversity.*

* Why would you be interested in diversity unless it directly affects you?* [never mind that my family is made up of two Caucasians and one Asian; that didn't seem to matter to this person]

*You’re only interested in diversity because you have to be interested in it.* [for work]

* You’re obsessed with the gays.*

For the record:
* I’m a white woman who’s interested in diversity (as we all should be).
* I’m a straight woman who is not only interested in GLBT (gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender) issues, but has also researched and written a little bit about them. I’m also a faculty member of a GLBT Committee on the campus where I work.
* I’m a registered Democrat, but I vote on the issues and the people running, not necessarily by party line.
* I’m politically liberal.
* I’m a liberal Christian.
* I’m an adoptive mother who is interested in adoption reform. That doesn’t mean that I am anti-adoption however, just that I think that changes need to be made to protect all parts of the adoption triad (particularly the birth/first parents and the adoptees).

I believe that all of these can co-exist within me quite well. It may not always be easy, but then again, it’s not always easy being me :) . But no one else has that job, but me.

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I haven’t really talked about my faith with these people, nor have I talked about my political leanings. I’m a bit afraid that doing so might make their heads explode. Maybe I’ll just save those discussions for a really slow, boring day. Then, at least exploding heads will be a nice diversion.

Responses

You sound like a very interesting enigma Judy!

Also I love picturing the exploding heads… Hehe, it made my day.

Ha!, thanks!!

“It’s awkward for a white woman to be so interested in diversity.” If someone said that to me I wouldn’t know whether to laugh or cry. How did you respond? I would think it would be truly far more awkward to be a white woman fleeing from diversity, but then maybe that’s what some parts of society expect from us. Sheesh.

Cloudscome, well, after telling her that I thought we should all be interested in diversity just by virtue of living in a diverse society (that had absolutely no impact), I kind of had a little mini-rant there. Not yelling, but more of an impassioned stream-of-consciousness spiel of my life where I started with elementary school and went from there!! It’s hard for me to even remember exactly what I said because, I swear, I barely took a breath! I was just so astounded (and this isn’t the first type of discussion with this particular person) that I think I let out a lot of pent-up stuff, LOL!!

Weirdness. “fleeing from diversity” — HA!! That conjures up some strange images now, doesn’t it. Monty Python-esque — “run away, run away!!” My word!!

It also baffles me when people tell me how I’m “supposed” to feel about things just because of what I look like or who I wanna smooch. I think you and I have a lot in common there, Kiddo. ;-)

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